pure stress

Sigh.Trials is just around the corner and im totally stressed out. Talking is one thing but doing something about it is another.

Why is it so hard to concentrate? i know the consequences if i dont. but yet, im not putting my whole effort into it.

Why cant i study like when i studied for pmr and did well. Do i lack motivation? Am i giving up? Have i lost hope? Or am i just pure lazy..

I wish life was easier.

I want to do well.But now that just seems like it is only a dream.

I just hope that the spm papers wont get lost or something because my trial results are messed up.maybe im just being pessimistic.but its pointing to that direction anyway.

All that's left has gone away and there's nothing left to prove